I think life can be tricky sometimes.
I’m in a position right now where I see 3 very distinct perspectives on identity.
1. Myself. It’s been a journey (I actually hate that word- makes me feel like I’m on a reality TV show, i.e. “this has been such an amazing journey! I can’t believe I lost 424 pounds/met my soulmate after three dates/performed live on stage with Steven Tyler!”)
Anyway! I feel like I’m in a really good spot emotionally and mentally. I know what my strengths are and I’m proud of them. I know what my weaknesses are and I’m okay with them. I feel happy, confident and secure. Today’s a good day. Tomorrow might be different, but God has blessed me and I’m thankful- truly thankful.
2. On another side of the spectrum, I spend a good 2+ hours a day with Jr. High girls.
Pray for me.
Do you remember what it was like to be in Jr. High? The drama? The emotional roller coasters? The bad skin? The braces?
And I watch these lovely girls flounder (because there really is no other option when you’re 13) and I want to say to them, “It’s ok. Be you. Don’t everyone copy that one girl because she’s better at faking her confidence than you are! Be. You.”
3. And then, there’s my boy:)
My sweet boy who is thoughtful…
…and goofy, all in the same breath.
J Man is loving preschool! Remember when I was so panicked about this ordeal?
So Teacher Sarah helped him make a special Thanksgiving hat. You would have thought that they had created this hat out of pure gold the way J Man revered it.
So as we’re “over the river and through the woods” this afternoon, J Man has an ensemble that he’s insisting on:
And I love his confidence. His unique little personality that makes him quizzical about the most random things (license plate numbers and state capitals, to name a few…). I’ll be the first to say it, my son is quirky. But he’s being him and at 3 1/2, he doesn’t know who else to be.
I hope he keeps that forever. I know that eventually he’ll do bad skin and braces too (Matty B and I have set a precedent), but I hope that he’ll always be confident enough to be who he wants to be.
Even if it’s a member of the Village People…